Two week wait from hell...

The two week wait is the worst. The progesterone symptoms are so similar to pregnancy symptoms that it becomes so easy to convince yourself that you are pregnant, and then when Aunt Flo shows or is even a few days late, you get so depressed you are crying like crazy because you really thought this was it. Since June, this has been the end of every month for me.

This month, I know I am not ovulating. I know that I the two week wait is not like other months because I know that I can't possibly be feeling all these things. The human brain is funny. You can really trick yourself into thinking or making yourself feel sick. I am so attuned with my body that every little thing I begin to think just maybe I am pregnant. Maybe the doctor was wrong.

Two days ago I felt a really quick sharp cramp, and then it went away. I felt a small cramp today and began to think. Maybe I did ovulate the other day. I haven't really felt cramps since the beginning of the month, and since then it has been all quiet on the uterus front. Until two days ago. Now I think it is because my husband and I have been more active in the bedroom. I am a little sore, and there is a cyst on that ovary. Very possible that it is what was bothering me.

Although I have now been gassy the last few days. I have to pee a little bit more. All things adding up to my Aunt Flo getting ready to visit. What I do have to say is that the last week since being told about not ovulating has been freeing for us. There is no pressure. We know nothing can happen, and we can just enjoy ourselves. I think this is my goal for the next year.

We need to enjoy each other. No pressure. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn't in June we will look at other options for how to be parents. It will happen. I really feel that. I really do believe that God will provide, we will just have to wait and see what he has in store for us. I am really excited about 2013 because by the end of the year I do believe there will be 3 of us.