Is it Christmas yet?

WOW!! It has been an incredibly busy last few days. I had a concert on Sunday, and then Monday and Tuesday were spent cleaning the apartment. Couldn't believe how dirty it is, and I am still not done cleaning.

This weekend I got hold, feed, and change my nephew. It was so amazing to be able to do that. I was also able to talk with my mom about the whole trying to conceive thing, and how I was going to go for a bunch of testing. She was very okay with it. It was very freeing to be able to talk about it. I no longer feel the stress of carrying the weight around.

Today I go in for testing. I am having an ultrasound to check to make sure everything is ok down there. Praying that everything is ok. I am also praying that I get some answers as to what is going on. This time next year I would love to have a little one in my arms.

Friday I go in for blood testing to make sure it is all okay as well. What I am concerned about today, is that my Ovulation tests were starting to darken, and now they are lighter again. Did I start to gear up for ovulation, and it didn't happen? Will I ovulate this month?

All I know is I haven't really had time to think about it this month. I am pretty sure it won't happen this month, but am excited to get some answers.