You need to fill those rooms....

We are moving into a house in the next few weeks. When we tell everyone how many rooms there are, they say now you need to fill up the rooms. They are implying we must have children now. While this is a great notion and reason we went with a house and why we got the rooms that we did, it is still hard to hear. It is almost like they are rubbing it in that we haven't had a baby yet.

I know we haven't been married a whole year yet, but it seems like an eternity with the baby thing. I figured that we would be at least pregnant by now. If we had gotten pregnant on the honeymoon we would have already had that little bundle of joy in our arms. It didn't happen, and now we are here 9 months later, and there isn't even a pregnancy. Instead, I am stuck with a rare disease that we hope gets under control enough that we can have children, and then when we get the chance to really try again, we will have to do fertility treatments.

It all sucks. There isn't much I or my husband can do about it, but trust that God has plan. That we will be given the perfect baby when the time is right. I don't have the answers as to why all this has happened, but I know God does, and he will heal. I am just really impatient right now.