stuck in limbo...

What a tough weekend. Felt like I didn't really have one. I essentially worked late on Friday, but it was a blast and didn't mind, and worked Sunday, and again a blast and didn't mind. This last weekend was the marathon, and I got to be there at the end for two students, both 12 years old to finish 26.2 miles. What an accomplishment. Something I haven't ever done, and would love to try, but know that at the moment it isn't physically possible.

Today I woke up with a horrendous migraine. I have had more headaches as of late. I don't think the medication is working any more, and the side effects are worse, and at this point it isn't even doing what it is supposed to be doing. I go to the allergist on Wednesday to find out if I am allergic to the other drug.

I have had weird cramping in the lower abdomen region as well, and have been super sleepy, yet not sleeping well at night again. My clothes are loose again, and I am back to not being able to eat all day until dinner time, and even then it isn't very much.

As I was waiting for the students to come in I was able to have a conversation with a man from another school, and what a blessing. He prayed for me, and blessed me. A perfect stranger. No judgement on his part, in fact understanding, questions, and no offering of what I should do. Just I will keep you in my prayers. God placed in my day yesterday as a way of getting me some church without being in church. Both of us were supposed to be at church, and he said we were at church. Part of being a Christian is being in service to people, and we were providing a service yesterday.

I may not feel well, and I may not have got the rest this weekend that I wanted, but it was worth it. I was there to support teachers and students who were on a journey to see what they were made. They accomplished something that most people can't. That I can't. It was worth it. Now I just need to get through the week. I am Cycle Day 13, having some weird feelings which are most likely due to the topmax, but I just feel like I am in limbo. Many around me with babies, or going to have one, and here I am stuck in limbo with a disease with no cure or cause.